Some girls think that they're better just because they're recovered.. Which isn't right not in the slightest because they were here once too
Right?! And I don’t want to recover and I’ve only been sick for about two years, so when I was in treatment at the adult treatment facility (first I was in adult and then they switched me to child and adolescent because I “wasn’t acting like an adult.” You know what they said I was doing that was un-adult-like? Restricting. Yes, because no adults restrict ever. Obviously it’s just a teen problem. Oh wait…) all these people who had been sick for like ten years were urging me to recover. That’s understandable. But because I don’t want to recover and I said that, they all hated me. Which is such bullshit, because they were all just like me when they were two years into their illness. They didn’t want to get better. They were where I am. But they looked down on me for it. I made it handleable by telling myself that their anger was actually at themselves for not recovering at two years, and not at me. But I reminded them of themselves and they hated it. They told me I was annoying. I didn’t fit in there at all and I had like two friends in the whole center. So for six weeks I got glared at and complained to and bullied (only by this one girl… She hated me for no reason other than I wasn’t completing. Like, bitch, what do you expect at an EATING DISORDER TREATMENT CENTER???). Then they transferred me to c&a and while the staff at c&a were bitchy, pushy, condescending, and rude, the other patients were absolutely amazing and understanding and nonjudgmental. But yeah. All the adults thought they were so much better than me and it just pissed me the fuck off.
Exactly! They've got NO frigging idea what you're going through -.- I hate when people say you're faking it.
Right? She was such a bitch. And I tried to explain to her what I’ve been through, I told her about my ed hospitalization and depression and self harm and suicide attempt (this was before I went to treatment and had a second attempt) and she was like “see it’s obvious that you’re only telling me these things because you want my attention” and I was like NO BITCH I WAS TRYINF TO EXPLAIN TO YOU THAT I AM STRUGGLING
I don't know.. Like if they want to pretend they can have mine. Fucking I'm so over it. I've almost lost my boyfriend over it a number of times.. He forces me to eat, I understand he's scared but still.
I hate it when people force me to eat, because I feel like it’s none of their business. I’m sorry you’ve nearly lost your boyfriend over it! It’s just, yeah, people don’t realize how much eating disorders cost you. I remember when I first started posting stuff about my eating disorder on here, this random woman who claimed she’d recovered from an eating disorder started attacking me and said that I was faking it and just looking for attention. It pissed me the fuck off because she has no fucking idea what I’ve been through with this and just, ugh. It was actually really triggering too. I hate people.
I know a girl, she's 16, we used to be really close And she PRIDES herself in eating less than 800 calories a day. She brags about having an eating disorder (when I know for a fact she doesn't have one, she's just looking for attention and definitely eats more like 3000 calories a day) pizza, cakes, the whole shebang. She isn't fat at all, she's average, but she brings about having/wanting anorexia and it pisses me the fuck off.
Ohmygod slap her. I hate it when people do that and luckily I don’t know anyone that mind-numbingly obnoxious. Like I don’t hide the fact that I have an ed but I don’t go around parading it, either. Why would anyone pretend to have an ed? People like her are the reason people think we’re all attention seekers. UGH.
Anonymous asked:"no one will read except shannon. hi shannon" AWHHHH HIIIIIII. :D and yes tummy is and ADORABLE word. but like rant time becuz like, i went on a walk with my whole family. and like all of my siblings were climbing up trees and stuff, and im like halfway up one whenever my dad goes: shannon get down, and i was like ummm why? and he's like...you'll break all the branches. :((( so now i feel fat but like you've tagged so much shit about ana that i feel bad about even thinking about it. :/
Awww, he shouldn’t have said that. :( That would make me feel fat, too. Don’t feel guilty for feeling fat, most people feel fat sometimes. You’re perfect as you are and I mean that.